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You hurt my family, I hurt you
by ~BlackEnvy
1840'S VintageDo you know the darkness like I do?  That comfortable stranger,  Only, not so strange here,  Every so often he passes through   
An intimate reveller  Softly running his hands through my hair  So close I am smothered  Then darts away so I can breathe again   
My poor little soul,  So afflicted in an era  Where chaos makes the only sense  And our sustenance consists  Of shrouded mists and midnight laughs  And red wine appetites  In our psyches' so entrenched   
Some of us want to run away  Flee this darkness that is so dense  But some like me, t 1840'S Vintage
by ~BlackEnvy
AcidHands clenched into fists with thumbs inside  Polluted darkness is where I reside  What to feel? I can't decide  So I let the vinegar tears strip my face.   
Alone I stand,  Forgotten in my cold furnace embrace  No comforting arms here  Only ash and dust and burnt remains   
If only I could burn my memories  Housed in a monumental edifice of inferiority  I want to break myself  
Then throw the pieces away   
Because I don't belong  Here, there or anywhere  I don't have a place   
Just want to get away  Break out  Break free  Break som Acid
by ~BlackEnvy
ContrivanceHello there manipulator  Pretending to be the innocent one  So upright, can do no wrong  Unknown to me  I was dragged through the mud   
You used me for my information  Drew out gossip from my tongue  Trapped me into trusting you  And silly me  I divulged it up   
But herein lay your downfall  And you thought you were so smart  Thought that you were being clever  But this situation  Showed you for what you really are   
Your interest in me was all fake  A tool I was for your own ends  Using me to make her jealous  It wasn't working, obviou Contrivance
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Smooth sailing

Mon Aug 3, 2009, 3:51 AM
  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Reading: 1 Samuel
  • Eating: Olives
  • Drinking: Guava Juice
It's been a very long time coming, BUT...

I am happy with where I am in life. Happy! YAY!!!!! Dance with me peoples! :dance:

And I deserve every single moment of it.

Life is on course for once, pursuing my ministry, family leaving me alone, good friends and happy times all around. For once I'm not jealous of other people's relationships because I'm not in one (HUGE step for me). In fact I am quite happy for those people and I don't have to fake it like I once did. I'm happy being single but there is quite possibly someone on the horizon which makes me very :D also, see what happens there...

Work is busy but I might possibly get better hours and a payrise, who's not happy with that?? Functions to attend, washing annoying people out of my hair (they're starting to trip themselves up in their own lies, HAHA!!), the DC to look forward to, EJ coming to stay with me n Hayley in our cool little apartment for the weekend...Joy joy joy!

The same annoyances are around, they just don't get to me as much anymore. Can't change most of them, why bother being anxious? I am content.

Funny how the things you need always come to you when you're not looking for them, or at least they're right under your nose when you're gazing far afield....

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  • Interests: writing, needlecraft, reading
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*LordAzrael85 2 days 7 hours ago
Thank you for the favorite and oh-so-thoughtful comment on "Give Me A Smile"! I'm always happy to receive comments from such an intriguing individual as yourself. Thanks for reading! =)

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Reality is just one dream-walk away...
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*LordAzrael85 Sep 18, 2009, 6:42:07 AM
Goooood morning! Thank you very much for the favorite on "We Walk"! As always, it is much appreciated. =)

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Reality is just one dream-walk away...
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~BlackEnvy Sep 19, 2009, 11:43:19 PM
You're welcome!

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A heart at the end of its' tether
Swiftly descending into blame,
Pain lasts only a minute,
Resounds through generations forever;
The aftermath, it spells my name.
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~X-chromosome Aug 3, 2009, 3:32:26 AM
Hey! :wave: Long time no see! How are you? Still studying? :)

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LiNk
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~BlackEnvy Aug 3, 2009, 3:52:30 AM
Hello!!!! My goodness it's been ages! I've finished studying, working now in administration. What about yourself, what are you up to? Still in the army?

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A heart at the end of its' tether
Swiftly descending into blame,
Pain lasts only a minute,
Resounds through generations forever;
The aftermath, it spells my name.
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~X-chromosome Aug 3, 2009, 4:04:44 AM
Haha yes it has :D oo you're finished already :aww: Nope, I'm not in the army anymore! I was there for 362 days and have now been out for a year :) I'm studying biology at the Helsinki uni. :)

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LiNk
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~BlackEnvy Aug 5, 2009, 1:26:21 AM
Wow so you're finally going back to biology! Sorry I had removed you from my watch list I thought you'd made another account and weren't coming back to this one...anyway looking forward to seeing your work on here again!

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A heart at the end of its' tether
Swiftly descending into blame,
Pain lasts only a minute,
Resounds through generations forever;
The aftermath, it spells my name.
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~X-chromosome Aug 5, 2009, 3:46:17 AM
Yep I am. The second year is starting soon :) It's okey, I understand. I was gone from here quite a while :D

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LiNk
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*priteeboy Aug 1, 2009, 5:58:34 AM
Thankyou for the recent comment and fave on Brilliance of light :thanks:

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*priteeboy - proud founder of ~The Worst Artists on dA club! - take a look, have a laugh :pointandlaugh: :|
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~BlackEnvy Aug 3, 2009, 3:29:16 AM
Always a pleasure :D

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A heart at the end of its' tether
Swiftly descending into blame,
Pain lasts only a minute,
Resounds through generations forever;
The aftermath, it spells my name.
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